Why Did I Stay?
Why did I stay?
I thought he was sick...I was to take care of him.
(you can see here (http://blog.mysteriousworkings.com/2009/12/06/what-if-someone-i-know-needs-help.aspx) what I thought was happening. I didn't know the threats were something abusers do to get their way.....I didn't know....
After the event in June 2009 I told him he had to get help....I couldn't live like this anymore. (I didn't know things would only get worse...I thought he was sick ......I believed him when he told me he would get help..I believed him)
Looking back, I see this really began as soon as we met.....I didn't see the signs......
His suicide threats became a daily thing. I had hidden everything in our home that I thought he may use to harm himself or things he had used before to harm himself ......
He had an appointment with his psychiatrist one day and I wanted to be there. He told me I couldn't go..I insisted..he told me I could go but I couldn't talk with his doctor......
When he went back for his appointment I told the receptionist I had to talk to the dr...I had to let him know what was really happening. I thought they may need to change his medication or the dosage or something. My concern for him and his well being was at the top of my list.......maybe the meds were causing his increased thoughts and threats? I didn't know but I wanted to make sure he got the best care....
They let me go back...he was not happy I was there.....the fighting started.....
At one point the dr said something to me and I shot back with "You're the one who told him he didn't need to see you anymore!" (no, I wasn't calm )
The look on the dr's face told me the truth before he actually said it...."I never told him he didn't need to see me or he was ok....he refused to see me or go to the group sessions."
(he only went when he needed to get his medications and seeing the psychiatrist was the only way to get them...)
I was not happy to hear this news....he had lied about all of it...and the lies were so easy.... now I understood why he didn't want me to see his dr.....now I understood more than I ever had....I knew the truth.....
His psychiatrist tried to talk to him....asked him to go into another room with him and talk....
He jumped from his chair and ran.....
I thought he was sick...I was to take care of him.
(you can see here (http://blog.mysteriousworkings.com/2009/12/06/what-if-someone-i-know-needs-help.aspx) what I thought was happening. I didn't know the threats were something abusers do to get their way.....I didn't know....
After the event in June 2009 I told him he had to get help....I couldn't live like this anymore. (I didn't know things would only get worse...I thought he was sick ......I believed him when he told me he would get help..I believed him)
Looking back, I see this really began as soon as we met.....I didn't see the signs......
His suicide threats became a daily thing. I had hidden everything in our home that I thought he may use to harm himself or things he had used before to harm himself ......
He had an appointment with his psychiatrist one day and I wanted to be there. He told me I couldn't go..I insisted..he told me I could go but I couldn't talk with his doctor......
When he went back for his appointment I told the receptionist I had to talk to the dr...I had to let him know what was really happening. I thought they may need to change his medication or the dosage or something. My concern for him and his well being was at the top of my list.......maybe the meds were causing his increased thoughts and threats? I didn't know but I wanted to make sure he got the best care....
They let me go back...he was not happy I was there.....the fighting started.....
At one point the dr said something to me and I shot back with "You're the one who told him he didn't need to see you anymore!" (no, I wasn't calm )
The look on the dr's face told me the truth before he actually said it...."I never told him he didn't need to see me or he was ok....he refused to see me or go to the group sessions."
(he only went when he needed to get his medications and seeing the psychiatrist was the only way to get them...)
I was not happy to hear this news....he had lied about all of it...and the lies were so easy.... now I understood why he didn't want me to see his dr.....now I understood more than I ever had....I knew the truth.....
His psychiatrist tried to talk to him....asked him to go into another room with him and talk....
He jumped from his chair and ran.....
Posted by N2itive1 at Sunday, May 30. 2010 
Categories: Domestic Violence
Tags: abused women domestic violence dv abuse
Categories: Domestic Violence
Tags: abused women domestic violence dv abuse
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